I just don't want to do it - I don't want to deal with X-mas this year. I go through it every year: dread, followed by resentment, followed by resignation. Eventually, I come around and actually find pleasure in trying to match the right gift with the right person. This may be stage one, and most likely I will come around. Still, a week in the Carribean, away from it all, during the holidays may be just what the doctor ordered . . . .